Diction Addiciton

Systematic, I'm wrapped in this.

I'm fixated on a toxic bliss.

It replaces my thoughts,

forgetting dreams not sought.

Spectres, memories, debts unpaid,

polluted minds, the eutopian raid.

Sloshed in poison worth heaving

but I am the one retrieving

death's inviting carte blanche.

This massive avalanche

Will try to swallow me whole

Until I regain and seize control.