Welcome To The Vortex

Stellar

2008-01-20T23:13:00.000-08:00

If shooting stars were made to wish upon,

and the universe was just a dusty drum,

would you follow the adament trail?

Across the belt, the lions mane and the scorpions tail?

Without knowing if the universe will grant that wish,

Tell me then, would you take that risk?

Diction Addiciton

2008-01-03T20:03:00.001-08:00

Systematic, I'm wrapped in this.

I'm fixated on a toxic bliss.

It replaces my thoughts,

forgetting dreams not sought.

Spectres, memories, debts unpaid,

polluted minds, the eutopian raid.

Sloshed in poison worth heaving

but I am the one retrieving

death's inviting carte blanche.

This massive avalanche

Will try to swallow me whole

Until I regain and seize control.

Upon

2007-12-21T14:08:00.000-08:00

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I've collected the light within, everything flashes...

Memories rest on a bed ashes.

It all fades, my glow will not dim the least.

I can feel it lift me from beneath,

all you can do is watch in disbelief.

I slip beyond your stratosphere's reach,

imparing your every sense along with speech.

The skies expose your deepest regret

which bejeweles the skies so you won't forget.

That everytime you make a wish,

I am the reason for this.
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The Guy From Bristol Street

2006-07-20T09:18:00.000-07:00

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The guy from Bristol Street,

the one with the cute feet

& a smile that provoked

wild thoughts and things.

Who makes my eyes light up

everytime he sings.

The guy from Bristol Street,

leaves trails from broken hearts.

Except MINE,

it firmly believes in destiny's plan.

That maybe one day he'll understand.

That when I held his hands,

I read what they said

along thier linear bends.

The guy from Bristol Street,

showed me and old soul

can still uncover

adventures & lessons

of love to discover.

Reminiscing in rejoice,

because he had it all....

even the choice.

Knowing well it will not replicate.

That he changed it all.

That I arrived to late,

for my own rude waking.

My heart left for the taking.

The guy from Bristol Street,

spared my heart to leave.

He knew me well, I never plead.

How I fought inside,

enticing as it was.

My bittersweet catalyst all because of..

THE GUY FROM BRISTOL STREET.

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Done

2006-06-21T09:53:00.000-07:00

What brazen speed did moments pass?
In all levels beyond facets,
The inner dephts,
beyond the pit and the looking glass
Magnifiying past the havoc.
Of this being the only way I know how.
Your words wrenching,
with eyes that animate my salvage.

But it's done.

You see, it all comes down to amity.
Every conversation spoken; tact,
to grind the blade of empathy
to twist and recoil the words further back
in the deepest sectors of my mind.
Ridden by an arctic pulse,
severing with intentions kind.
Not looking back, not even to hault.

Chain Effect

2006-06-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

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I've suffered fools long enough.
Where I stand is an emotional trough.
My heart a lonely hunter left barren,
accounting witness of all that's happened.
Milestones embedded in my mind,
a beautiful mosaic of memomories to find
when everything dims and foreshadows
what the future might hold, no scry or tarot
will predetermine what lies ahead for me
because I chose to let you go and break free.
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Finale

2006-05-26T18:16:00.000-07:00

The end of a fable short lived,

I lament...

Our goodbye and all the things

you will never comprehend.

The aftermath of you and I

is not 3.14 or as simple as pie.

Impacts on who I was... who you are.

Accepting that we've come this far,

to take the final stand.

To a story so grand.

A graceful bow,

I make my exit

and close the chapter as best fit.

Hopefully your hands will reopen the volume

to everything bookmarked and entombed.

Our story lives on in four chambers,

to find your way all you have to do is remember.

Space In Me

2006-05-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

Pneumonic, mnemonic,
breathtaking, visual memoirs,
finalizing in a single gasp
I let go...

I drift and sail away
through cosmic rain
and nebulas storming.
Soaring beyond blackhole despair,

starboard, streaming like a vessel.

Supernova bright, radiating,
engulfing the dead of night
and burning the pages of the past
to light my way.
Nothing will impede.

Celestial gestation,
spritual reconstruction,
enlightenment through pain.
I let go.

In LoVe & WaR

2006-05-07T12:58:00.000-07:00

If what I gave could not suffice,
or could not be sold at the price
of self worth and respect,
then there is nothing else to expect.

A purple heart on my sleeve livid,
to wear as a token of memories vivid.
Trying scribe to what has already been written
taken away by you and your actions, I'm smitten.

The final truth exposed, here we are,
casualties in a love tainted in war.
Battles in your own mind you're trying fight
forcing me to take an easy phlight.

My white flag, surrenderring to reality.
Realizing that in love and war, morality,
will not just sum up what has perished,
but holds a lesson to value and cherish.

Bon Augure

2006-05-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

My dark epiphany,
a spark in the darkness.
Torn within time and fate.
Changes already abound
lest the wrath of irony.

My noir love,
leave assured the secrets
are safe with me.
If not here,
maybe in some other life.
Till then my heart shall encase you.

You will always be,
My stardust horizon
My chromed savior
My dark beloved
My last tango in Paris

I will continue the mission.
It will not be easy,
but in your absence it will be fulfilled.

A black rose
can only condense in the shadows,
never wither.
I will be strong and wear
opaque thorns with pride.

My eyes gleam onyx transparency
to your portals and yours alone.
You were the one,
you will always be the ONE.
Nothing can erase that.
Adieu.

NEVER

2006-04-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

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You tried to shatter me,

and grind me to dust...

enslave me in tyranny,

turn my limbs to rust

condemn my soul

and decimate my everyday.

You tried to take me whole

leaving in hopes of decay

belittle my existance

and strip my integrity

mad beyond reason, distant...

that's how you wanted me.

But like I said... YOU TRIED!

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Synchronized

2006-04-18T21:22:00.002-07:00

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The past is a river
that winds in one direction,
dams are built if you stop the current.

Evenutally it spawns a new flow
leaving the hurt as silt
and the rage with the bedrock.
If life steers you midstream,
away, and far from the pacific
like a bottle floating
in the vast open sea,
waiting for your scroll to unopen,
your purpose yet to be fullfilled...

Remember,

lifes' tide will harness you close
and sway you gently to land...
no matter how turbulent its waters.
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That night...

2006-04-07T01:58:00.000-07:00

At sunrise I was reborn
died in your arms at dusk
I refused to conform
to the idea of this as lust
and nothing more
looking at you sleep in peace
aroma of scents you wore
early dawn, ruslting trees
denoted our time had come
your sensous lips
leaving me undone
the crease on your brow
torso, exhuming your hips
I look to the sky and ask how...
could this moment last forever?
my last hours spent in marvel
before I ceased, my dear endearvor...
my purpose was to unravel.

Caste Away

2006-04-02T04:33:00.000-07:00

Abysmal wave carry me away.

Saline streams that lead to its body.

Beached on a lifeless shore.

Exiled, basking under ultraviolet nothingness.

Before you sent me on my way,

I hope you bid farewell to all that could of been

and all that will never be.

Marooned on the coast of lost dreams.J

Flight

2006-04-01T00:30:00.000-08:00

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Metamorphic transformation
sealed, cacooned, death and creation
Catacombs in my mind that ravish
my existance and suspend me in anguish
Dormant, undergoing a change miraculous
to soon break free into the world, rebellious
Exoskeleton, remnants for you to hold on
and leave behind without pardon.
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Elements of us

2006-03-22T19:55:00.000-08:00

Golden profile,

sunset mirage

I see you after days

and

nights awake wondering

tailing behind,

infinite,

the same circle starting over again

so worn,

but so mezmerized,

entranced

euphoric illusion,

taking my life

my breath

with every passing day

The moon waxes,

the moon wanes,

and I wonder

is it just a phase?

up to my neck

this tide rising

then low

Impossible

conjoining elements,

water and fire

the void and the flame,

the whirlpool and the vortex

still...

I'm left here hung to dry

wet and cold

while you continue to burn to a cinder

If I extinguish you fear

in exchange, rekindle this heart

and the smokescreen between us

will clear.

Carry on

2006-03-19T12:46:00.000-08:00

Keep living in blasphemy
stay caught in the rhapsody
Hold close to who they want you to be
God forbid you.. the sodomite be free
or Gamorra and Babylon will rise
You'll be stoned and chastised
by the very ones that claim to love you
I understand why you wont see it through
and the cross you must bear
Your iron facade, the mask you wear
the bonds you break, the lie you live
I gave you all that I could give.

Spring @ last

2006-03-10T18:41:00.000-08:00

Your kaleidescopic veiw

has awakened something new

splashed color to my world

technicolor bright, multipattern swirls

sort of like Dorothy after Kansas

painting over the canvas

of my never ending grey and black streak

like a rainbow across the horizons peak

cradling the sun, the colors you bring

have given me a new song to sing

no more Picasso blues

from now on..

just Van Goh hues.

8 /14/ 03

2006-03-03T11:54:00.000-08:00

The city was enveloped in total darkness leaving me on a quest for closure. To seal the chapters of this lingering burden. The moon grimaced upon the city. My heart was pacing, my thoughts frantic. Eerie images sorrounding me. People cloaked in shadows. Headlights on cars and buses casting the only light along the sidewalks. My mind was determined, and my heart was conflicted. I had to decide if I was going into the unknown for a final resolution , or simply to win you back. I decided whatever the outcome, I was going to find you and tell you everything that haunted me for the last seven days. Once I made it past the angst and the madness, and made my way to you, there you were with your sorry face, childlike, illuminated with the candleligths glow. In wonder and disbelief that I had the courage to cross the city for this occassion. The golden momonent, the moment I longed for. To ask you if you had reason to leave unnanounced like you did. If one argument was what it took to say "Enough!". To ask you if you were happy leaving love behind. To question if every "I love you", every embrace, every slow dance, every kiss, was simply a hoax.. just a lie. With your eyes locked to mine, you sincerely replied "No". Which tore at my soul, creating the void which still resides inside. The war, still raging inside of me. This pandoras box, will remained unopened. No one will obtain what you once had the previlege to recieve. When the years pass by, and you reminisce in silent reverie... I hope you can look back at us and remember it was you who let true love walk out that door... not me.Y

U S of Fukin A

2006-03-02T23:01:00.000-08:00

Candy coated hypocrism, modern day fascismo.
Unemployment, who can mary, cant it just be simple?
Polls that lie, wars that kill, when will I pay all my bills?

Raise in taxes, gas burns money, no insurance for my ills.

Frontline kids, headline news, politicians scour.

All the while an idiot leads us to our darkest hour.

Forefathers eteched in stone frowning on a nation
Chronicled in smut, before emancipation proclamation

Who are we to judge, and who are they to chose?

Democracy my ASS because in the end we lose.

Heartchasm

2006-02-28T14:51:00.000-08:00

What good are you poor Solomon without your wisdom? If cities fall to ruins, castles turn to rubble, and the mightiest of kings perish.. What makes you the differ? These riddles have come to light, to better stage your show. Your ways have slain my faith in truth. My frail heart can crack, but will never be in fragments. I did my part, served my purpose. Yet another trifled face in your revolving door. But beyond the door awaits your mirror. Vanity and presumption reflecting their host. Defacing your image, disrupting your reality. Let me know when you decypher the biggest riddle of all, and discern who you really are.

In time

2006-02-23T11:49:00.000-08:00

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Swimming fiercely against the mainstream.
A lovely midsummer night's dream.
Deep in slumber, I never want to wake.
My own fallacy, or just a simple give and take?
Implanted like stillborn seeds which never bloom.
A courtship jester, or just a plain bafoon.
To please your fancy, your every whim.
The chalice will soon overflow the brim.
So take this cup with open hands,
Before the hourglass devours every grain of sand.
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Child of the Eve

2006-02-21T00:06:00.000-08:00

Abandoned in the Devil's playground
left to ask, "Whose hands clip an angels wings?"
Like broken toys left never to be found
what justice allows such things?
A fold on her face, the scale empty
can her eyes like those of the heavens
Shun a truth exposed so blatantly?
as the citiscape grows and hope lessens

Temptation and sin lurk the streets

where it is survival of the fittest

And if you saunter to a lonely beat

the beast will prize you, if not intrepid

Revalations of faith, what it means to believe

that the sky is not a sinkhole

That a new day means you're a child of the eve

to embrace your life and enrich your soul...

Well at least thats what it means to me.

Adonis

2006-02-19T12:04:00.000-08:00

You move me, your eyes convey the secret. The key encrypted in your glare. You arrived on a bed of stars, past constellations, across the astral plain. Your lips a tinge of rosebuds. As soft as their petals, I can only dream. This feeling, rooted deep like a tree of myrrh. Your emerald windows, make carnate passions flare. Your following holds your shrine, your pedistal holds idle to me. Idolization is not my aim... you serve of a higher purpose. Cunning in all you do, I am under your spell. You stand tall in romanesque perfection. Your demeanor, regal, yet you treat others with equality. All the more to want you as my own. Even if Hades claimed you, to the underworld and back... all for you. Just let me know if your chariot has a place for me, and together we can sail the sky.

Homely

2006-02-12T02:16:00.000-08:00

Fusion of the nuclear setting
radioactive, mutated, embedding
Walls constructed of ignorance
too many blown fuses...
Making clarity obsolete
words bleed like plasmic concrete
Furnace boils a magmatic core...
tempering hearts of steel and ore
Insulated with rage and silence
founded on all I've lost
And what I'm trying to find is.....
a place far from where I fled
Far from the visions in my head
back to proclaim my glory
Out of the midst of darkness, into light
This is my story.B

1 AND LONELY

2006-02-06T14:32:00.000-08:00

Blurred between the lines
lost in transition
Your motives unlcear
waiting on your decision
Time so cruel
will not stop or hinder
The solstice and darkness
of this eternal winter
If the eclipse has seized
the brightness in your world
Then all thats left is a shell
robbed of its pearl
These offerings I bring
to envoke the warmth of spring
And bring forth the one I see
not the one they all assume U 2 B. N

NoMaD

2006-02-03T17:21:00.000-08:00

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I have followed the gypsies road
Trailed vagabond paths
Used the stars as my map
The sun as my dial
The moon as my confident
And the four winds as my guides
My journey still continues
The creases on my palms streching
Youths glow replaced with the secrets of time.
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Along Came You

2006-02-03T12:10:00.000-08:00

!Webs you sow to lure your prey. Maybe I am to blame for blindly sailing into your translucent trap. Woven by the essence of you, who can resist. Maybe we are two of a kind you and I... one for the other. But beware when the tables turn and predator becomes prey. Hee hee! "

Yours

2006-02-03T11:48:00.000-08:00

If you could read my mind, infiltrate my thoughts, and discover all that lies within. If I could just give you a glimpse of what it has been before you arrived and what it will be if you decide to stay. You see, I'm not in search of appraisal... I will forever be your diamond in the rough. Unpolished to the world, sparkling in your charm. Emmiting light your eyes luster makes me shine.